The Question

There is a question hanging.   Plain and simple.  and she was asked.. Point blank.. 

What makes sense...   What doesn't...  You've discussed the past.. (well. not all of it, but most. but rehashing brings clarity)

 The question:  

What do you want from this relationship in your present and future?

2 answers within minutes..

Answer #1: 

who the hell knows.. I want to meet (or re-meet) him in person.. have face to face contact with someone from my past who obviously means a lot to me. 

Answer #2

I want to see him. Sit with him.. Hold his hand.. talk to him..
 Start at the beginning.. (really) which may take hours.. because it's a long story..  and.. well.. we will go from there.  

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but in truth, losing what is current for both, isn't an option...

and isn't the reason for the reconnecting... 

which makes this whole thing even harder. 

Her Head Spins....  Her heart flutters... She can't explain the feeling she has except that it has made a change in her everyday being.. lighter, less bogged down.. less cluttered (if that makes sense) Freer to a certain degree.. and she's ok with it. 

She hopes he is.