What is it??

 What is it??..   

She isn't sure..  

Maybe it's the relentless September heat, which she is fairly certain has never been this bad. (although she may say the same thing this time next year!!) 

She's tired but wakes 3 times during the night.  She tried to nap during the day, but the heat stops the process. 

Maybe it's the tug of war going on inside her brain and her being.. Not just on one level but several.  Friends, family, situations, responsibilities...

The past tugs, the present pulls, She's rectifying them both. How?? she isn't sure.. but she has to...

It's caused her brain to open up.  see what's there, what's possible, the colors, the smells and sounds.   She's enjoying the music, specifically the lyrics she sang but never really understood before.  But now she does. She listens.. to every word. because they have meaning.  Always did.. 

Her dreams are real... One day..